I been trying to keep my composure with this bullshit. Honestly, I have been but this is my blog and I feel I need to use it for the purposes of expressing my emotions the way I choose to.
Here's the thing. People can say whatever they want about me and I'd bet money that I've heard it at least once before at this point so it doesn't matter. But let me stress that I will proudly admit that I have never hated udoli and don't think I ever will. Sure some of the drama was probably one the main downfalls udoli had but hello?! Look at the western gyaru community! It's far more catty there than it was in udoli and yet there are several girls and guys, myself included obviously, who still choose to take part of that lifestyle. And I understand a lot of people didn't like what it became recently earlier this year. Boo fucking hoo, cry me a God damn river. Where the fuck were you when all the admins constantly asked people for their opinions. Shit it almost was like we were BEGGING at one point for people to speak the fuck up but no one did and once changes started to be made everyone flipped shit and said fuck it I'm out of here. If you think udoli went to shit, then why didn't YOU express yourself to the people who were semi-in charge?
And if the only reason you have for hating udoli is because of who the original creator was, then hate HER! Not the people who joined it or the movement itself. It was a brilliant idea that needed more time and support to mature into something beautiful imho. I think the reason why I loved udoli so much is because of a few reasons. One being that it brought so many girls who I identified with together which was somewhat difficult to do before through just Myspace, back when it was hot xP. The other would be that I love my Nigerian culture. Although I have a great interest for modern Japanese and Korean culture, I'm always going to love where my parents came from and how they raised me up using their traditions. I see nothing wrong with liking multiple cultures however sadly, a lot of people like to make a big fuss about it but that's their problem for not seeing the world I do, not mine. For once I could take that part of who I was and combine it with the other parts of me that I grew fond of...if that makes sense. Last reason, udoli kept me working and made me busy! The whole time I would be at work, I would be always thinking about new ideas for make up tuts, ideas for events, contests, you name it! Before gyaru even came into the picture, THIS was what I loved more than anything else. So to hear people bash it and just talk so much trash about it sickens me. You can have your opinion but I sure as hell am gunna have mine.
Udoli wasn't a group full of random black girls on the internet who all wanted to be Asian, although I'll admit that the majority did have a deep interest with Asian culture that initially brought us together . But for those who didn't stick around to see what it was evolving into, it was way more than that. It was a sisterhood, believe it or not. When you have people like that to talk to when no one else in your life understands where you're coming from, you hold them dear. I've had my moments when all I wanted to do was spend my entire day on the website because of that reason alone. I hate to cheese up that part but it's all the honest truth. I know after this there's still going to be several out there who still think udoli's this and udoli's that, but if you were a TRUE member who never left then I'm sure you get where this entire message of mine is coming from . . .