Hi guys! I wasn't going to make this post but since I did it I thought I'd share with everyone here too. I created my Facebook "fan" page today in hopes that you all would show your support to me through there and keep in contact with me on that page instead of my personal Facebook. I haven't deleted anyone currently on my Facebook but I don't plan on adding a bunch of people I haven't spoke with as much as I used to before, hence why the creation of this page. Anyway, I did mention that I planned on doing a fun giveaway soon so if you want to get a head start on participating you can go ahead and like my page on the sidebar of my blog or here :)
I even made a little graphic for you, tehe~
I can't say thank you enough to everyone who genuinely likes what I do online. I don't get paid for it, it's just an honest hobby I do as a form of escapism sometimes and also more importantly to release my expression. When I see people jump to the conclusion that I'm attention seeking because of what I post on my facebook, blog or Youtube, it confuses the shit out of me o.O It has only happened once being last night and that was when some cunt decided to hop her sloppy ass on this picture of me and Kevin...
Last night, my sweetheart kindly agreed to doing my hair and went all out! He cut in layers AND curled it and it looked great! I couldn't have done it by myself and after making such a difficult wig for the past 2 days, I had no energy to do so anyway. Shockingly, not even my sister knows how to do what he did and she's good at doing hair...just not that. He was dressed for my friend's wedding we were going to later that evening further explaining the formal attire. We both would do anything for each other no matter what people may think of us, that includes my friends, family, or whoever else has an opinion about it. So when I read what this piece of shit said about how he looked like a gay hairstylist and that she wasn't really feeling the picture because of that, I saw red. After a few friends kindly intervened, I came back and replied with something along the lines of if you don't like it, gtfo. The bitch would not understand my point and continued on to defend herself when she was clearly in the wrong. I can't have people even slightly insulting someone like Kevin to me. He means way too much for me to let that slide so I put her whack ass on blast then eventually blocked her but it led me to want to say this, and it's a first.
I'm not purposely prancing around with my boyfriend showing everyone pictures of me and him together for the sake of gaining popularity, PERIOD POINT MOTHERFUCKING BLANK. I understand that the AMBW/BWAM community are the biggest audience that watch our content but if you can tell, I do not and will never dedicate 100% of my posts, videos, statuses about our relationship. That shit gets old, fast! No matter who does it and if people also think that I consider myself above their level because I went and snagged myself an Asian boyfriend, you need to listen and listen good. I never think or had the thoughts of my boyfriend being a future trophy Asian husband or some shit.
I get that I made videos discussing hot topics centered around black women and Asian men but that was NOT me desperately pleading for the attention of Asian men. If that were the case, I would have blatantly said "I want an Asian guy! Why won't they like me??" which I have seen sadly on some channels. I made those videos as a way to open discussion in the comments based from those topics and gain a better understanding of what most Asian men think of black women when my curiosity of the matter was at it's peak. Before Kevin came along, I didn't even have a preference. Did you guys forget that my ex-boyfriend was Nigerian American? Dark skinned tall lanky guy who looks NOTHING like a k-pop star...yeah, I guess people wanna act like I don't like my own kind or some bs. But do you wanna know why he didn't look like a k-pop idol? Because I date for love, not shallow stupid reasons like wanting to be with some oppa for the rest of my life and have blasian babies to brag about. If that were the case, I'd have already been with an Asian guy prior to Kevin who I'm sure would have not clicked as well with me as me and Kevin do. What is the point in focusing so much on race? I really am going to make a video about this soon because this topic works my last nerves...
Is it so hard to believe that I am not one of those girls? I dropped that stupid ideology long, long, long ago. I find men of all races highly attractive so to hear complete fuckery like that drives me absolutely insane. I can't even speak too much about how some people think I am only popular because of my AMBW videos and Kevin being my bf. It makes me not want to put him on my blogs or Youtube channel at all and I have really been considering just completely ignoring the topic of our relationship entirely so that these dumb fucks realize that. But when the majority of others approve of our relationship and show so much support and love, I couldn't possibly do that to them when it obviously makes them feel so happy to see us happily together so the good wins over the bad.
All I can say is, I love my blackness. I love being Nigerian American. I love being apart of my culture however I also love experiencing other cultures whether they're Asian or not. Don't judge people you never even spoke with right off the bat based on what you see. Not only will it lead to inaccurate assumptions, but it could really hurt someone's feelings. I hate that Kevin unfortunately read her rude comment before I could steer my laptop away from him and felt hurt. He's not used to people talking that way and shouldn't be exposed to such trolls like her! I don't ever want this to happen again, and if it does that will be the last straw. I really can't stand for stuff like that. I had to reassure him after he read it and he felt better soon after but still. I remember how it felt to read something hurtful from someone online when I wasn't yet immune to it a few years ago and it really does stay in your mind for a few days depending on what is said so just watch what you say. Anyway, we didn't let that one stupid girls comment ruin our night thankfully. I have so much to talk about on my post about the wedding.
To end this on a happy note, guess who got the brides bouquet? Hahaha yup! Anyway, hanging out with my gal friend in another hour. Toodles!
EDIT - I know there are errors but I wrong this in a hurry.
EDIT again -__-" - I wasn't solely referring to this one girl in this rant...obviously! But some idiot went on g_s and decided to be cute to make it seem like I was being irrelevant in my rant and my response to that is uhm...no. This is a reference to a compilation of bullshit I've dealt with concerning my relationship with my boyfriend...didn't think it had to be so damn important to announce that but to those who wondered, there you go. Now keep my name out of your mouth ffs and stop making me your hobby.