To feel so many emotions with someone I'm in a relationship with is a spiritual out of body experience sometimes for me because I usually see us as one rather than our individuals selves. That unity of two parts is hard to put into words for me, but I know it eases my mind when I am in that train of thought. Tranquility overflows my being for a few moments and I forget that I'm not in heaven for that duration of time. It gives me strength to believe that there is a reason to fight for this type of happiness. A reason to keep on pushing past all the obstacles we encounter as a couple. A reason to remind ourselves that our love for one another is going to always conquer any fight we may have no matter if it is major or minor. These reasons and more are why I believe we are still together. So much has happened since I met him...
Real talk, I was going to originally post this last week in a more peppy happy tone but Kevin and I got into the biggest fight we've ever had. I was so scared of losing him because the likelihood of us being together looked slim. Despite it being that severe, after all of that we still saw through it by some miraculous way.
A colossal thanks and huge heaping of appreciation goes to the friends who gave me advice and listened to me cry and go on about the fight this last week. You all know who you are and I honestly am NOTHING without you guys. My friends make me strong at times like these so I really want to say thank you so much for your support and helping me stay in the right senses. Sorry to those who may want to know what happened as I refuse to disclose that information but just know that after this, I strongly believe we can overcome bigger and badder fights in the future which is really relieving to know.
If you're in a relationship and are having troubles but deep down want to work it out, then work it out. At first, it might feel like you're giving into them but trust me sometimes you gotta just talk these things out and commit to always being understanding of the other person's emotions. Communicate, lord almighty please do this lol it seriously saves you from so much when you do it the right way. Still learning as time goes along, I'm not relationship expert but I'm just sharing a bit of what I've learned so far.
Kevin Qiu, honey, I will always love you.